Saturday, February 20, 2010

MY DIARY


I’d ever had a diary when I was Senior High School. Among my physics, mathematics, biology, and other books, I left an ordinary, really ordinary, book which was used to put my secrets inside.
Yes…
Inside it was about my activities with some secret opinions, comments, and feelings. For its absolutely secret…you knew lah…no one might read my diary…even, my closest friends anymore.
Well…we tend to make a better relationship with our friends by sharing each other, sometimes we also tell some secret thing…
Itu manusiawi…
Masih ingat pelajaran PPKN SMP, right?
It was explained that human is monodualism one. It means…dalam seorang manusia, terdapat 2 sifat yang bertolakbelakang, yakni sifat individual itu sendiri and of course, sifat sosialnya. Manusia adalah makhluk social, tapi makhluk individu juga. Manusia memang membutuhkan orang lain, dan sering juga dibutuhkan orang lain pastinya. For that reasons, almost people need the others t share what problem she/ he got. She/ he expects to find the solving through the others’ advices (diluar dugaan, mungkin orang lain itu pernah merasakan hal sama, dan bisa saja memberikan problem solving atau solusi yang lebih baik). Or just sharing with them, some people will be fell better…lega
Every people has their own way to handle it, right…
But, beside that, tak jarang kita menemukan manusia dengan sifat-sifat individualnya; egois, mau menang sendiri, apatis, kikir, dll.nya.
Contoh dari sifat individual manusia yang dianggap wajar-wajar adalah ketika mereka bicara tentang privasi. Menurut writer sendiri, privasi hampir selevel dengan hak asasi, but bedanya, jika dijelaskan mathematically, privasi merupakan himpunan bagian dari himpunan semesta hak asasi…
Pun privasi juga terkait bermacam-macam hal. Diary ini contohnya.
Okay…
For some people who can’t share to the others well (maybe like me), they usually share in their own way to melampiaskan their own emotions. Writing diary is just one of its examples.
And as I said before, I’d ever had a diary when I was Senior High School. I called it ‘THINK’ with a figure of a light bulb. There are two eyes in the bulb, and also the smiling formed-filament.
Can you imagine that???
I didn’t fill this diary with my writing everyday. Yeah…not everyday. Just when I want ajah…
Once upon a day…I merapikan rak buku as usual. There is nothing strange…everything was good. But, someone who isn’t mentioned her name or kita sebut saja BUNGA (not her real name), suddenly, she told me that she read my diary…
OMG!!!
Well…her honest maybe could be accepted. But, her bad-mannered (I think, diary is someone’s top secret and relate with her/his privacy), I don’t think so it could be accepted anymore. Moreover, she read it without my permission…
Certainly, I was extremely angry at her. Unfortunately, she didn’t realize my anger. Maybe, I didn’t look like someone who was angry…heeemmm… truly; I really want to be angry, but I can’t… lastly, senyum yang kupaksakan muncul (so sorry about it). Didn’t she feel in guilty, hah???
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After that, I stopped writing diary for little bit long time. I was confused.
Then I forced me my self to start writing again. And when I started it, I’d just written it in a simplest word, even just a word, which represents my all feelings. It can be inferred that I used some figurative language, such as; Synecdoche part prototo, just a part but refers to all, and symbolism.
In the other hand, because of that case, I began to try learning the other way to make my diary illegible for beberapa orang yang tak bertanggung jawab seperti contoh diatas. I try to learn some things such those figurative languages above, English language itself, and more other unique alphabets.
Yupz…memang selalu ada hikmah dari setiap kejadian
That’s it.

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